urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kmfbhatchatch Kassi Benson Kassi Benson 2006-08-21T08:53:16Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kmfbhatchatch:589 2006-08-21T08:53:16Z 2006-08-21T08:53:16Z i was mislead by someone.<br />this person made me believe that my friends hated me.<br />it made me angry and hurt.<br />this person obviously lies. <br />this person likes ruining friendships.<br />this person is so unhappy.<br />and fakes every fucking minute.<br />i hate what i said/did to my real friends.<br />i'm sorry everyone.<br />ps. i'm baked, but sincere. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kmfbhatchatch:499 2006-08-15T07:45:26Z 2006-08-15T07:45:26Z Depeche Mode - Enjoy The Silence I definately remember saying that I would never have another LiveJournal again, but I couldn't help myself. I need something to vent to. This summer has been really weird. I thought that if I just had a car and a boyfriend, everything would be fine and I would finally be happy. I guess I was wrong. For some reason, I just do not feel content and happy. I never thought that going to work would be the highlight of my day.. Me, Kassi Benson. I actually was sad when I had to call out the other day. I could not believe what I was feeling, it was so weird. I actually like my job. I think a huge reason why I am not content with everything is because of friends. I feel like friends slip in and out of my life and I never know why. Can people just let me know why they don't want to be my friend anymore. All I ask is that you tell me. I'm actually really happy because over the past few weeks I have rekindled three friendships and I am really excited and not going to fuck them up this time because of caddy girls. Last week I went wakeboarding with Kait and even though I sucked, I had a lot of fun. Kait and I hit up club hell after and then I crashed into McDonalds and broke my mirror and window, haha.. No major damage. I went to club hell again on Friday with Sherri and was threatened by cokeheads who said if they weren't on probation, they would kill me. That's cool ya know, they were mad because "I hit a pregnant girl." Even though, the pregnant girl talks mad shit about the two girls who threatened me and the pregnant girl wasn't even pregnant when I punched her. She pushed me to the fucking ground on the dancefloor dude, I wasn't going to let her get away with it. All the cokeheads need to get their facts straight, seriously. What else.. hmm, I work almost every day now and enjoy it, how funny. I can't get over it.. not to mention, I make a lot of money. My hair is currently black. I start Paul Mitchell on September 5, 2006.. ahhh soo soon, I don't want school to begin. I am still wth Keith and things are good. My new love = Derek Moran. I had a kitten, but it's butt was bleeding so my mom made me give it back. Kait and I are getting an apartment by October. I love my late-night adeventures with Benjamin still. I smoked weed this week. I'm going to Mandy's tomorrow like old times, weird.. but way exciting. I missed Mandy and Kim. I'm done writing tonight.